Thinking Kinky : The Nappy Haired Diva

So, I have made a decision to move on. I am going to move on from being overweight, unhappy, financially insecure and negative. So I decided to begin a new way of eating. I am eating healthier and this is not a temporary solution but a long term solution. I am starting the HCG diet. I think if anything it would be a good way for me to become disciplined. I need to learn how to stay away from sugars, processed foods etc. The first two days I was to eat whatever I craved. It was a fun run but by last night I was so consumed with greasy rubbish that I was ready for day 3. Day 3 is today. I can not have anything but Melba toast, grilled chicken (3 0z), and fruit. Its going to be a touch day... Now to move on to happiness. I don't plan to do anything that doesn't make me happy. If I don't have to do it and it will not bring any joy to my life, I will refrain from doing it. Thats the rule. I am going to do what I want to do so that regrets will come far and few between. Money... ...

About five years ago I was as thin as I had ever been. I may have been either as thin as I was in HS. Its possible I was even smaller since I worked out five days a week and could bounce a quarter clear off my quads...(in my italian mobster voice: eh shad ahp and let me relish in my glory days, will ya?!). So, I was thin and I felt great. Then I looked so good that I ended up getting pregnant and was back to being overweight, and a card carrying member of the big girls club. Here I am four years later and I struggle with the same 15 pounds that I have left to lose. This is no fun at all. However, I will say that I am making leaps and bounds in other area's of my life. I am growing wiser each day and doing things that make me happy and doing without what doesn't. Recently I received news of something that is going to close a chapter of my life that at one point seemed endless. After some thought I realized that I will never be through with that part of my life for many years du...