Thinking Kinky : The Nappy Haired Diva

So, I have made a decision to move on. I am going to move on from being overweight, unhappy, financially insecure and negative. So I decided to begin a new way of eating. I am eating healthier and this is not a temporary solution but a long term solution. I am starting the HCG diet. I think if anything it would be a good way for me to become disciplined. I need to learn how to stay away from sugars, processed foods etc. The first two days I was to eat whatever I craved. It was a fun run but by last night I was so consumed with greasy rubbish that I was ready for day 3. Day 3 is today. I can not have anything but Melba toast, grilled chicken (3 0z), and fruit. Its going to be a touch day... Now to move on to happiness. I don't plan to do anything that doesn't make me happy. If I don't have to do it and it will not bring any joy to my life, I will refrain from doing it. Thats the rule. I am going to do what I want to do so that regrets will come far and few between. Money... ...

Lately I have been seriously stepping out on a limb and doing things that would surprise many, even myself. Here's the thing, I am having a damned good time doing it. I feel like I am finally catching up with the Abby I would of been had she not left me in the dust when I got pregnant ten years ago. Anyway, I am finally doing all of the things I wanted to do and miss doing. Today is a trip to Jamaica. Tomorrow, who knows? My book is seriously being considered by a reputable agent... I have done a little dating here and there... life is good. I've even made some interesting friendships. Very interesting. I'll leave it at that. I must admit that I am taking great risks to find happiness but so far, I have found that there is nothing else I would rather work harder for at this moment. I would rather struggle to be happy than to maintain the mediocrity that was my life last year. So, yeah I've been out on a limb...but I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm enjoying t...