Thinking Kinky : The Nappy Haired Diva

I have decided to make it. I deserve it. I have decided to be kind to myself. I have decided to love myself unconditionally I have decided to be content. I have decided to find joy. I have decided to not be alive, but actually live. I have decided that God makes no mistakes. I have decided to seek peace in the midst of my anger. I have decided that I will go on, no matter what stands in my way, or what knocks me down. I may walk, crawl, or drag myself... but I will finish., I will make it. I will leave no stone unturned, no door unopened. I will find a way. I will finish, and I will make it.

20, and oh so green body lean senses not too keen or not keen enough to keep walking but I decided to give him my number, my time I chose to fall for those lines I was only 20 so is it a crime to be green? So then we dated a movie or two we'd do what young folks do and just hang. sometime later far less than a year my belly was growing with a baby in there and he cheated and succeeded in telling me that it was a one time thing and I would sing every sad love song because my heart was broken. I took the token apologies and tried at times I lied too and cheated but love defeated logic and like a fool I married and brought another child into this mess that I tested out at the expense of my children and with little remorse he stayed the course and I filed for divorce because being second and being wife is an ironic way to live your life and I walked away walking away from him led him to walk away from his kids the one I bore for him for us ...