Thinking Kinky : The Nappy Haired Diva

match.com, eHarmony, Christian Mingle, Black People Meet, Plenty Of Fish...these are the sites that I have tried in search of a man that I can see myself in a committed relationship with. You know the story, I'm a single mom, divorced, two kids, trying to copy Stella and get my groove back. I work full time, weekends are typically spent at church, cleaning and doing activities with my kids. I don't have much time for me. I don't have time for happy hours, I am skating home to meet my kids. I don't have much savings and what I do have doesn't allow me to justify the expense of a sitter. So I work, I come home, I cook, I help with homework, sign permission slips, pay for field trips, hustle kids to bed and when they are finally in bed... I surf the dating sites. Initially it was fun. I was in communication with men from all over from Massachusetts to Maryland. I got to chat, message, email and even text some of them. I knew that I would have NEVER met any of these...

"you're so simple" she marveled. "so...visual.I can grind against you with my bosom in your face and you'd forget Im not who you really want." He said nothing. Instead he continued to breathe heavily, allowing moans to escape from his lips every now and then. "I'm so different." she said as she rocked harder. "you'd have to be a different man for me to ever want you. I'm on top of you, but Im not even here." She rolled her hips hard against him and coaxed his climax. She rose up and began to dress. Her bra was on the floor, her shirt was on the bed, her shoes were at the front.door. Her mind and heart were further away, perhaps with someone else ut never present with the one she was "with".