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Getting My MJ On...The woMAN In The Mirror

So, I have made a decision to move on.
I am going to move on from being overweight, unhappy, financially insecure and negative.
So I decided to begin a new way of eating. I am eating healthier and this is not a temporary solution but a long term solution. I am starting the HCG diet. I think if anything it would be a good way for me to become disciplined. I need to learn how to stay away from sugars, processed foods etc.
The first two days I was to eat whatever I craved. It was a fun run but by last night I was so consumed with greasy rubbish that I was ready for day 3.
Day 3 is today. I can not have anything but Melba toast, grilled chicken (3 0z), and fruit. Its going to be a touch day...
Now to move on to happiness. I don't plan to do anything that doesn't make me happy. If I don't have to do it and it will not bring any joy to my life, I will refrain from doing it. Thats the rule. I am going to do what I want to do so that regrets will come far and few between.
Money... my money is always funny. Even when I was making plenty of it I was always making poor decisions on how I managed it. Being with someone who is financially dependant on you when they should be contributing is a poor decision. I did that for years. So now, I am going to do whatever is necessary to bank and earn. Operation Financial Recovery is in full effect my friends.
Last,... this is hard to admit but I am a negative person. I like to say that I am a realist but if your closest friends tell you that you are negative the odds are that its true. I am trying to obtain a more positive outlook on life as a whole.
I am not saying that this is going to be easy, but the first step is to achieve happiness with myself and I am working on that now (please see step one!).
That is all for now. I have work to do.

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