So I had finally grown tired of living life but not living the one I wanted to live, and exisiting within a body that didn't truly represent how I felt on the inside.
I tried to diet and lose weight many times but I always wanted to jump on the fad bandwagon. Some time ago I did a fast from many things and of all the things I gave up, I managed to boot alcohol from my diet. I still imbibe on occasion however I don't drink glasses of wine daily nor do I have a full bar in my pantry anymore. Gone are the days that I can outdrink men, now I am on a two glass maximum.
Yesterday, after a brief annoyance with a man I was once interested in I decided to focus on myself as dealing with others brings far more emotion, conflict and thought to my plate than I care to consume. Realizing this, I mentally cut off all of the men that were teetering back and forth on my see-saw of love and loathing. I considered a mass deletion from my cell phone but my BFF told me I had enough self control to simply...not initiate correspondence. I suppose I will handle each one as they contact me, or not.
All of these things caused me to start Operation SexyBack which is a much needed mommy makeover/attempt to reclaim myself. I never felt I could do this with the abundance of distractions I had. Many of my distractions are now gone so there is nothing else to focus on but me and I am eager to give myself some much needed attention.
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The first thing I did was work out to Jillian Michaels 30 day shred DVD. It was difficult. I wanted it to be over within the first 6 minutes of the work out. I didnt give up however and I saw it through to the end. Afterward, I looked like a wet baby seal and I was satisfied that I worked a sweat. A day later, I am feeling achey in my arms, abs and thighs and I am even more pleased. No progress without pain.
Today, will be another session with the sadistic heroine Jillian Michaels. I will endure her drill sargeant methods of working me out while she saves one fat ass at a time.
I wont be weighing myself... its something that used to totally throw me off as I would define my entire day and level of effort by how many pounds I lost. Instead, I will watch my clothing fit better.
The goal is 40lbs. The date is Feb. 26, my 32nd birthday.
The blog is Thinking Kinky... stay tuned.
I tried to diet and lose weight many times but I always wanted to jump on the fad bandwagon. Some time ago I did a fast from many things and of all the things I gave up, I managed to boot alcohol from my diet. I still imbibe on occasion however I don't drink glasses of wine daily nor do I have a full bar in my pantry anymore. Gone are the days that I can outdrink men, now I am on a two glass maximum.
Yesterday, after a brief annoyance with a man I was once interested in I decided to focus on myself as dealing with others brings far more emotion, conflict and thought to my plate than I care to consume. Realizing this, I mentally cut off all of the men that were teetering back and forth on my see-saw of love and loathing. I considered a mass deletion from my cell phone but my BFF told me I had enough self control to simply...not initiate correspondence. I suppose I will handle each one as they contact me, or not.
All of these things caused me to start Operation SexyBack which is a much needed mommy makeover/attempt to reclaim myself. I never felt I could do this with the abundance of distractions I had. Many of my distractions are now gone so there is nothing else to focus on but me and I am eager to give myself some much needed attention.
Today, will be another session with the sadistic heroine Jillian Michaels. I will endure her drill sargeant methods of working me out while she saves one fat ass at a time.
I wont be weighing myself... its something that used to totally throw me off as I would define my entire day and level of effort by how many pounds I lost. Instead, I will watch my clothing fit better.
The goal is 40lbs. The date is Feb. 26, my 32nd birthday.
The blog is Thinking Kinky... stay tuned.
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