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the program *poem*


I tried
When i say i tried i mean i really did
I tried before and after then
When i tried while you lied and then when I'd leave
You'd call me a quitter
I tried while i cried
And you doled out your attention to the highest bidders
And I kept trying and you kept denying that there was an issue
I tried to hide the pain
When hurt so much just to stay with you
With all that i was and all that i am
I tried to abide
 By your stupid program
And you never acknowledged nor tried to fix the glitches
You kept coming home late from F##### other b#tches
You tried to keep it.in the dark
But i turned on all the light switches
 i rubbed you the right way
And you'd stay and still never grant my wishes
You ripped out my heart
And left this poor soul to sew the stitches
It hurt knowing you were using my money at the bar
It hurt seeing her lip gloss under the seat of my car
You said you were my man
Is that who you think you are?
no balm you tried to slather on was enough to heal my scars
You were a lie
The bitter greeting
The sweetest goodbye
The ever fleeting
Lover with whom i tried
To love above the stars in the sky
To play me for the fool
To be so bold
To take me to school
You damned assh#ole
To release inside of me
Love me and lie to me
Your life is a joke
Now you want to come.cry to ME?
I take no delight in you
 Reject the very sight of you
Go live your flawed program and take your worthless b#tches
that you thought were so tight with you

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